Since I lost my Assembly Member position, I have been under much local pressure to consider standing against Lembit Opik in Montgomeryshire, in the next General Election. While I don't really like Lembit's "celebrity" approach to politics, (in fact I detest it) I wasn't sure that my home county shared my distaste. That is, until I looked at last Thursday's voting figures in detail. I haven't done the research yet, but I'm sure nowhere else in Wales produced such an odd result.
This is what happened, in the 'constituency' vote, the Liberal Democrat candidate, Mick Bates, polled around 2,000 more votes than our man, Dan Munford - a great effort by Dan which makes Montgomeryshire a marginal seat. But the 'list' vote was as staggering as its been unnoticed. The Conservative vote surged up to 7,191 while the Lib Dem vote collapsed to just 5,111. We won by 2,080. For the first time ever, we absolutely hammered them.
The reason this matters to me is that the 'list' vote in Montgomeryshire was highly likely to have been a personal vote for me. I really am quite shocked by this - and there is a little voice inside me (which is getting louder by the day) saying that I really should have a crack at the General Election. I was going to take a month out before deciding what, if anything, political I was going to do. I feel this timetable is shortening.
I already know that I can't let it go. I love politics too much. For years I've worked to develop a Centre/Right party in Wales, committed to a successful future for the Welsh Language and everything that makes my dear country of Wales the culturally distinctive heaven that it is. In particular, I love selling this concept to my very 'English' friends. And they almost all buy into it. I don't think I can just let that dream go. I just want to hug people like Helen Mary, Leanne Wood, and the new girl Bethan and squeeze their misguided 'socialism' out of them. Now, that is one unlikely dream. Thinking like this is nuts of course, because I have just lost my seat of influence. But all my life I've lived on dreams - and some of them came to pass.